How i feel when i lost my job...

... and 'friends' make you feel even more degraded than ever before with their 'sharp' remarks.

Oh brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you, cause I don't know what to do
Oh brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future and I wanna talk to you
Oh I wanna talk to you
You can take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done

Are you lost or incomplete?
Do you feel like a puzzle, you can't find your missing piece?
Tell me how do you feel?
Well I feel like they're talking in a language I don't speak
And they're talking it to me

So you take a picture of something you see
In the future where will I be?
You can climb a ladder up to the sun
Or a write a song nobody has sung
Or do something that's never been done
Do something that's never been done

So you don't know were you're going, and you wanna talk
And you feel like you're going where you've been before
You tell anyone who'll listen but you feel ignored
Nothing's really making any sense at all
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk
Let's talk, let's ta-a-alk


So it's like Jason is trying to console his little brother Jordan when Jord asked those questions.

Goodbye, cellphone...

Nokia 3110 Classic, the model of my cellphone that went missing

It was a terrible day for me yesterday. Well, it all happened when a few guys came to the house to fix the ceiling and the flower railings on the wall. I'd never seen them before, not the usual guys that i know, but i figured maybe Pak Ramli (their boss and our neighbor) told them to drop by. So i let them in and they went on fixing the roof and so on. I was fasting yesterday, and they were still working even though it's getting pretty late, around 7:30pm. I broke my fast and munched away. I left my cellphone in the living room, thinking that it'll be safe there, after all it's in our house. Later on, one of the guys suddenly appeared in the house, asking for a way out. I showed him the way. They all left with a huge lorry, and i wasn't suspecting anything. It was about 2 hours later that i decided to look for my phone. I always misplaced it so i tried calling the phone using the house phone. I started getting suspicious when i couldn't detect the ring tone at all. And i was shocked when someone answered at the end of the line, but then quickly hung up. I started panicking and searched the whole house. I couldn't find my cellphone at all. I called my friends and asked them to try and call my cellphone to see if anybody picked it up. They said that someone answered but then hung up. Starting to get migraine, i called the boss and asked him to asked his workers to see if anyone of them took my cellphone. I got worried because most of my contacts were in there and most of them were so important to me. I couldn't even concentrate on drawing my Cavaliers because i got so worried about my phone.

So today, i heard from Pak Ramli that he sent the guys to the police station. They didn't confess, so Pak Ramli said that hopefully they will confess behind bars. I started feeling guilty about it. Maybe it wasn't them after all. Maybe it was someone else. Maybe i must had it misplaced somewhere. Argh it hurts my head. My mum said i shouldn't worry about it too much. I know, but still.... *sniffs*

I feel really awful now.